summer in winter

time to chage

2011-05-15T15:42:00.001+08:00

college is over
a long holiday ahead of me
time to change
take it slowly
every step
every pace
just to enjoy the nice days ahead
XD

假期

2010-11-01T18:47:00.002+08:00

考完试了
假期也只剩下不到一个星期
哎
时间过得也真快
还有好多事情没做
真忙
想去把我留了一年的头发剪了
也想去更新身份证
又想去qb
应该够时间吧
好吧
就这么决定了

x)

2010-10-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Lazy ME

真是的

2010-09-21T15:31:00.007+08:00

真是的
来了kmpk四个月多
我就生了四次病
有没有搞错
我有这样体弱多病吗？
我的抵抗力有这样差吗？
我不要啊
不要变成药罐子。
我要变强壮！！
就这样决定了

IT class

2010-09-14T14:15:00.003+08:00

I'm sick today! oh god
flu. again..
luckily there was a free period after chem lab
had time to walk back to dorm for pills
so now i'm feeling quite okay

IT class now.
supposing we have nothing to do since we'd finished all that needed to be done
but
our lecturer still has things she wants us to do.
she divides the class into 5 groups
and asks us to do presentation about topics she gave like mine group was given web browser.
unfortunately, she doesn't want me to be in the same group with shanling again.
so here i go, separate with shanling. again.

from perak back to penang

2010-09-08T23:20:00.004+08:00

Today is the first day of raya holiday, my family came to fetch me home from college, the others of my gang all back penang by bus.

Their bus was just arrived when i went to the guard house to scan my id.

After we had lunch, we went to gua tempurung but sadly the tour is closed at 4, we arrived 330pm.

A tour takes about 40 minutes, so we didn't go in and see the beauty of the cave.

Nevermind, next time!

So, no gua tempurung, we went up the highway and headed home.

At the highway, we saw 2 buses stopped at the road side and many people.

My dad joked that maybe that's the bus that my friends took, i said nay, that'd be impossible. But than surprisingly, the truth is, that was indeed that bus they took.

Km told me that the bus they took broke down, it only went 40km/hrs. WHAT?! so slow

So in the end, they arrived home after 8pm, much more later than me.

Back to highway.

Hmm.. I was so damned tired that i fell asleep in the car.

When i woke up, we were stuck in a jam at autocity.

My dad's car was low patrol, so we went in autocity for dinner and fill up the tank while waiting for the jam to loosen.

The shop!

The kui tiao teng at the shop is sooooo nice!!

The seven village!

Next time go there must go there eat. x)

So in the end, we only reached home at 8. x)

tired, but still refuse to go sleep. x)

they left chocolate fudge cake for me <3

the sky on the way home looked like this

outside gua tempurung beside the lake

the clock of in the shop very special.

lobak

holiday starting tomorrow

2010-09-07T15:05:00.003+08:00

yesh!! holiday again!!!
muahaha!!
go shopping!
go eat!
relax abit
though i know it's only a few days long
well, what do you expect?

blue

2010-08-26T14:19:00.000+08:00

blue suits you most

x)

storm

2010-08-17T14:55:00.003+08:00

seriously
i do think i need to play basketball
i need to think
even when i have to shoot the net in the rain
i don't care
as long as i can focus and think

pros against cons

2010-07-02T15:23:00.002+08:00

the pros
-i will have more time for friends
-i will have more time for homework
-i will have more time for revision
-i will have more time for myself

the cons
-wasted time? abit
-wasted energy? abit
-anything more? i can't think of any

conclusion
the pros win over the cons so what should i be worrying about?
better things are out there waiting for me
remember what i've said to my self
there won't be any sunrise if there isn't any sunset.

the first week and the second week in kmpk

2010-05-18T15:57:00.002+08:00

hi everybody! i'm in kmpk, matriculation college of gopeng, perak now
the first week was the orientation week.
before i came in, i was wondering what the hell they orientate for the whole week?
well, there were alot of activities
5 ex-pcghs came in,
me, karkar, aiyin, shanling and wendy
i'm glad i have them here
we're having alot of fun
though abit busy because the classes have all started

well
about the first week in kmpk
alot of activities were held in the hall
and let me tell you
the hall is damn hat
and we have 2018-not sure about the figure, but i think it's around that-new students
and we had to squeezed in the hall, just like thousands of sardines in a gigantic tin, haha
honestly, it was very hot, the heat made everything seemed boring and tiring
this made us miss penghua's hall so much
air-coned, well-organised, comfortable, big!
but luckily, we live!
and the food here is great, if you like curry and spicy food
though the food have lots of calorie but we won't get fat in here because we have to walk to lecture halls, tutorial rooms, labs and blah blah blah.
all the calories taken in will be used when walking so, no worries of getting fat. x)
and my dorm
hehe, it's very nice
there's a tv room, so i guess i won't be so out of world at all, at least i can watch drama, shows, movies and news. xD
my room mates are 3 malays, 4 people a room. they're nice.
i've adapted to the life at here. x)

saturday and suinday were sports and gaming between the dorms
i went for the basketball!!! x)
because i love basketball, obviously
but sadly, our block lost! T.T
because there was a state player in our opponent
she's a good player but proud
she told her team to play rough..
and they all blocked our way, she did her one-man-show
so in the end, we lost
in another game with another block, we lost again.
this time, there were also a great player,but she is very friendly, she came to shake hands with all of us and said sorry.
that was nice of her, i like her attitude, unlike the other player.
shame that we lost, but nevermind, the main purpose of the games were to get to know more people.
but i will work hard. going to play basketball with new made friends this friday, if there isn't raining and if we can borrow the ball
so, cheers!!

and about the class
in the end of the first day, we had many homework, i still haven't finished some
i'd got physics at first, so were shanling and wendy
but in the end, we managed to change our course and we're in the same lecture!! *cheese*
so biology here we come!
homework
hmm
and the timetable are packed
we have to rush to a lecture hall to tutorial room
we don't even have time for tea.. =(
and the library
it's nice, with air con x)
but they don't have many books like penghua
hmm, am i comparing everything here with penghua?
and now i'm onlining in the library
but sadly, this computer cannot get in facebook, i wonder why
my new made malay friends who can speak cantonese and chinese quite well-surpring, right?-have told me that we can get in facebook, blogs and youtube in here only, the other places are guarded with firewall.
at least i can get in the blogger, right?

okay then, till here today, i want to try another computer if can get in facebook and shanling is waiting for me outside. see ya! and i miss penang and friends!!!

the last day

2010-05-09T13:28:00.002+08:00

how fast time flies
tomorrow
i'm starting new life
so
i won't be online that often anymore
anything needed to be said
said
goodbye penang
goodbye home
goodbye family
goodbye friends
goodbye my bed
goodbye my computer

till next time
x)

on a crossroads

2010-05-07T01:57:00.002+08:00

on a crossroads we are
people are going in different ways
some go in clusters
some go alone
no matter which way we go
friends
we'll still have each other on our mind
that's a promise
well
a start of something new
together we make our dreams, our future
bon voyage!

4 DAYS!!

2010-05-05T17:23:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!
i can't believe how fast time flies
4 DAYS left in penang!
and since then i won't be online this often anymore
but
i promise
to all my friends
if i have the chance
i'll go online
and chat with you guys
4 DAYS!!
T.T

5 days!

2010-05-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

lots of things to do
lots of things to pack
busyness can drive anyone crazy
5 DAYS
that's sad
lots of things to do
lots of things to pack
in 5 DAYS!
=(

12 days

2010-04-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

12 days
soon
i'm leaving penang
my home
my family
my friends

that's sad

i'll leave
never give a backward glance
for fear when i see you
you'll see me crying

somewhere out there

2010-04-26T19:59:00.003+08:00

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someones thinking of m
eAnd loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someones saying a prayer
That we'll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star
And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

If we hold on together

2010-04-26T18:48:00.001+08:00

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i

礼物

2010-04-26T16:24:00.003+08:00

终于可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻开过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋
走一步又一步我才发现转了个圈
走了好几年又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界
走一步又一步却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远
你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

你说做自己吧我们都做回自己哦...
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫
终于分别宿命一样准确
可笑到想要你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光着脚我一路奔跑鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号只有你能明瞭
过了这一夜我就全忘掉

goodbyes

2010-04-16T13:18:00.003+08:00

with every goodbye that i've been through
i found out that i'm used goodbyes now
i'm getting tougher?
maybe
i'm getting stronger?
maybe
or i'm just getting numb?
there's a chance

we're in mid April now
friends
one by one
will be leaving or have already left for their new destinations and adventures

the airport seems to be a sad place and a joyful place at the same time
people say goodbyes
people say hello
people cry of farewell
people cry of joy
it's heart-breaking in a way to go to airport
because you'll see farewells
but it also give you a glimpse of hope
because you know you'll see hellos

'every sunrise has a sunset before it,
every hello has a goodbye before it'
without goodbyes, there won't be an hello
when it's my time
will i cry?

random

2010-04-13T00:47:00.002+08:00

haven't been up here for a very long time
life's busy
lots of thing to do
lots of thing waiting for me to do
it isn't fun
to have a extremely long holidays
hoping to start a brand new life soon!

officially eighteen!!

2010-03-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

yeah, i'm eighteen now!!
well, though i can't celebrate with friends this year, not yet
but i think i've get the best present this year,
with was the result, though it has some flaw,
B+ for chinese..
but overall, it was a good result!!

happy birthday to me.
and thanks for those who wishes me this year, that mean alot! XD

on the border of time

2010-03-01T17:08:00.002+08:00

people always say when you're working,
you wish you can have some rest;
when you're resting,
you wish you're working again.
this is how i feel sometimes in this long holidays

it's funny and melancholy at the same time to say that time speeds up when you're having fun and you don't realise it and when you finally see it, you're a bit late.

that's how it seems now.

the last second when i closed my eyes,
it was last December when my adventure of holiday was just about to start
and the next moment when i opened my eyes now,
we're in March, just about to receive our gravest nightmare--getting the results
positive thinking i am,
it's still a bit scary, though

well, surprisingly
i've only just realised now that i've still had many things undone
but one thing for sure
holiday is over
it's time for decision and greater adventures!

after CNY

2010-02-23T18:30:00.002+08:00

well, i can say that i had a great CNY
had gone to play basketball but for a stupid reason, i didn't play in match
by and large
this was a fun year because got to spend times with favourite cousins
played games, visited relatives, watched CNY special shows on TV..
well, just a normal life, the different thing was you got to see relatives that you only see during CNY.

a conviction

2010-02-11T13:09:00.003+08:00

have been thinking more often lately...

fragments of memory swirling in my head
suddenly i realise that i'm not a believer
not always
not everytime

ps this'd be the last post before CNY

this is what i feel right now

2010-02-06T17:04:00.002+08:00

I am moving through the crowd
Trying to find myself
I feel like a guitar that's never played
Will someone strum away

And I ask myself
Who do I wanna be?
Do I wanna throw away the key
And invent a whole new me
And I tell myself

No one
No one
Don't wanna be
No one
But me

You are moving through the crowd
Trying to find yourself
Feel like a doll left on a shelf
Will someone take it down

And you ask yourself
Who do I wanna be
Do I wanna throw away the key
And invent a whole new me
Gotta tell yourself

No one
No one
Don't wanna be
No one
But me

Your life plays out on the shadows on the wall
You turn the light on to erase it all
You wonder what it's like to not feel worthless
So open all the blinds and all the curtains

No one
No one
Don't wanna be
No one
But me

We are moving through the crowd

I'm still here
when everyone around me is moving on
trying to figure out what to do with life..

nights of nightmares

2010-02-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

is it only me or is it everyone else
the days are getting hotter and hotter
it's getting more unbearable
mirages were hard to see a few years back
they were only common on highway
but now the weather has changed
everyday i can see mirages at the road when heading home
the weather really has changed

speaking about night of nightmares
SPM result is in 5 weeks!
argh
night of nightmares for sure!

deep in thought again

2010-02-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

now i really wish i can vanish out of this world
go somewhere else
do something else
do something new
be someone else
and start it all over
maybe to forget
amnesia seems welcoming now

blue and purple for the emo me

deep in thought

2010-02-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

people have time when they're feeling down
this is the day that i feel down
correction
is a bit down
with mixed feelings
i guess that's what one feels when one doesn't see one's friends much

thinking hard
honestly
life's never the same again and never will be after graduation
this is what i feel
emptiness
frustrated
sad
relieve
complicated
a bit happy
even a bit excited
emptiness is what i feel most

i'm walking further and further
getting far
what i see becomes blur
sometimes i even wish
i have to get the hell outta here
out of this world?
maybe
to be in another world seems welcoming
this wish is strong today

22 Jan, when you went back home

2010-01-27T20:21:00.010+08:00

two and a half years ago
you left to Australia
at the airport
four friends were in grief
crying
for it'd be difficult to meet again
but at that time
we knew that two years later we'd meet again
yes, it was us
wiping each others' tears
a glimpse of hope formed in our hearts
we'd be meeting no sooner or later
time flew
two years weren't that long
we could live through it

two long years passed
you told us you'd be back at the end of year
another half year of waiting
but nevermind
two long dark years had passed
another half of year was a piece of cake

half a year passed
you were back
nobody except me could go to see you arrive at the airport
the waiting for check in was long
but the moment we saw each other
we hugged tightly
finally
we met again
there weren't much time
we parted the moment i gave you my books

and since then till before you left again
we met again every week
we went shopping in queensbay
went swimming at karkar's
went to xinqi's
again
time flew faster than we thought
from 2 Jan to 22 Jan
you stayed in penang for only 21 days
we appreciate
cherish
valued every moment we had with you
for after this time
the next meeting seems faraway

22 Jan
again
i was the only one who could go
8am
i was at the airport one and a half hour before you arrived
i brought a book
the colossus crisis was the name
precipitating my thought
i waited for 9.30am to come

when a book was in my hand
time flew doubled its normal speed
you arrived
a smile was on my face when i saw her
both of us agreed not to cry this time on the phone last night
a brief hug
i helped to push their luggage to the counter for check in
she laughed
joked when she saw that the total weight didn't exceed 100kg

we sat at the McD at the airport
sharing a cup of hot Milo
finished
it was time for you to go
we hugged each other for the last time
tears rolling in your already red eyes
but they didn't fall down
we'd agreed
and surprisingly
i didn't cry too
i understood one thing
bright and shine i was
telling her that we still have msn and facebook
she nodded
one last look at each other
she left

sitting on rapid heading home
i'd thought of something
and i regretted thinking of it now
i haven't kept my promise to take her for a drive with me behind the wheel
i haven't kept my promise to cook something nice like my spaghetti for her
and i won't have the chance again until we meet again
and it struck me
my nose felt sour
but i didn't cry
i kept my promise

this time
we did take some photos
but there weren't many
being me
i like to take others' photos rather than others taking mine
it feels weird
but it's the best way for me to capture every moment
with me as the photographer
but this time
eyes as camera
everything i see
everything i feel
captured

i still remember what leechien told me last year
a quote in her novel
相遇是一种痛苦，因为接下来的是分离
分离是一种幸福，因为接下来的是相遇
this was part of the reason i didn't cry
leechien
thank you

i wanted to upload video from youtube
but oddly, i can't
maybe i'll upload it next time
these are the songs dedicated to our friendship
i liked the italic part the best
songs that are dedicated to our precious friendship
friends forever, my friends

遇到
你身上专属的陌生味道

是我确认你存在的目标

不用来回张望了

直到今世我们相隔著一个街角

这么久了，我还是可以看到

感觉得到你对我的重要

不会被天黑天亮打扰

你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我比谁都更明白你的重要

这么久了我就决定了

决定了你的手我握了不会放掉

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我答应自己不再庸人自扰

因为我要的我自己知道

只要你的肩膀依然让我靠

谢谢爱
雨下好乱半个夜晚你不在身边怎麽晚安

天好蓝要和你一起看

起风时有你来温暖

心事简单一句说完

要我们永远不会分开

有眼泪也因为你灿烂

你微笑因为我盛开

要谢谢爱让你在我身边守护我的未来

有多少美丽奇蹟你手心里全都记载好期待

要谢谢爱让我学会宽容学会体谅关怀

像阳光陪著大海是平静还是澎湃都是爱

the last time we had together in queensbay-17 Jan

2010-01-26T12:51:00.011+08:00

well, the planning of today was a mess, but fortunately, we found an agreement to the time and place in the end and luckily, xinyi could go this time.

so, at 9.30am, i was behind the wheel with my dad sitting beside me who're up until now, still doesn't allow me to drive alone. stuff and bother. nevermind, at least i could drive to xinqi's today without a serious flaw. i thought i was the last to arrive when i pulled up in front of her gate ten minutes after ten. but it seemed that everyone was late. so, i was the first to arrive.

a few minutes after i'd gone into xinqi's too familiar room, karkar arrived. first time set her foot into xinqi's house after 4 years of friendship. we kapsiao a bit then the most important people today arrived. hoho. xinqi went down to welcome her while me and karkar hid behind the door and prepared to scare the life out of shuli. it didn't work out well, shuli didn't scared to death. surprisingly, her sis weren't with her today.

with everyone arrived-xinyi will meet us at queensbay later-we played card games, with shuli, xinqi and karkar using xinqi's laptop at the same time, thanks karkar for bringing the cards. a few rounds of game and we were bored. so xinqi took out her Uno, we played Uno. one round of game and we abandoned the thought of playing card games. we focused our mind on the laptop instead. we went to facebook, went to youtube to watch some funny video and karkar was doing magic with her cards while we wait for 12 pm to come and xinqi's parents will be fetching us to queensbay to meet up with xinyi.

horray! we were at queensbay again! sadly, this will be the last time. we walked from restaurant to restaurant unable to decide what to eat for lunch while waiting for xinyi. xinyi came at last, she hugged shu the moment she saw her. this was the first time she saw shu for 2 and a half year and the last time she'll be seeing her before she went back to Perth. in the end , we had japanese food. it was delicious, we were full! luckily shuli's, karkar's and my plate wasn't that big, or we'd end up like xinqi and xinyi, both had large ramen, unable to finished all of it.hehe

after lunch, we just walked and talked, window shopped, actually. at 3.30pm, shu had to go. we took more photos together. and then she went. but we were not done with queensbay after she went home. we went to Nose, Padini, Forever 21 and Jusco just to look for a watch for shu, a gift for her before we meet again, which honestly we don't know when, only god and fate know. 5pm came, we went home.

hmm, she was tapping at her phone. don't know what karkar was doing.

she gave us a smile and said she's tired. she can be annoying sometimes.

wake up, karkar!!

karkar the sleeping god doesn't even bother us.

she keeps on sleeping. i should bang her head with shuli's handbag.

now she wakes up! but i didn't bang her head with the bag.

here's shuli, she's looking at xinqi's stuff.

the sleeping god is giving out the cards.

Uno!!

my handphone pouch, the Bear and xinqi's book.

three people squeeze on a single bed. wow.

we love your laptop

here she is.

aiya.

her bag.

say cheese

karkar said re qing yi dian, so we hug and say cheese.

this is the normal one, with pooh in it.

me and karkar

me and karkar again.

shuli, me and karkar. i'm the tallest of us all. *smirk*

1, 2, 3, 4, say cheese!

xinqi, what are you doing?

okay, now i understand, it's photo taking time.

green tea plus honey, it's nice.

yesh! i managed to snap a photo of xinyi eating.

a photo of lamp before we left.

ps there may be more photos to be upload.

scream

2010-01-15T19:22:00.001+08:00

wanna get outta here!!

so long, farewell

2010-01-15T16:50:00.002+08:00

so long, farewell, dear yellow 'bumblebee'
i'll miss 'you'!

at karkar's

2010-01-11T15:47:00.002+08:00

9 JANUARY 2010
2.30pm

hmm, half past two. i was already late, BUT *hoho* i was the second one arrived at the front gate of the apartment karkar lives, stepped out from my dad's car just seconds after xinqi got out to meet karkar..

the moment the three pair of eyes met, we was some how shock.. the most important people hadn't arrived yet, what if she had forgotten??! we called, it was only me, actually.. i called several numbers, but, we didn't get in touch with her... oh no, she had forgotten.. nevermind, we would stick to our schedule if she really forgotten to come..

so, we went up. the first thing xinqi did was to go online with karkar's pc.. that was pathetic, karkar said, if she wanted to go online, why did she left her house in the first place.. HAHA. well, ximqi did listen to us, she signed out, and then we sat in karkar's room and chat while waiting for the Very Important Person, shuli to come, if ever she came..xinqi talked a lot about INTI, she brought her homework for us to take a look.. and then suddenly, my phone rang and then we knew it was her. she said she was on her way, but she will be late..

so, we went to play karkar's PS2 while waiting for she and her sis. hehe i'd told karkar the other day that i wanted to play her crazy frog at her house. so we played it. me against xinqi, and guess what, i WON! the FIRST place, and xinqi was the LAST one. *haik haik* a few battles afterwards, shuli arrived. so we went down again to bring her up.and then we played crazy frog again and shu and her sis were inspecting the Rubik's cube karkar has.

4.30pm

woohoo~ time for a swim. everyone put on their swimming suits, gathered the towels and off we went. to the swimming pool. at fifth floor. four floor below karkar's apartment. and xinqi was fussing about the datol smell in the lift, saying it was nice.. karkar and me: haiyoyo! yey! the swimming pool! there was a basketball court beside it, too bad we didn't bring our ball.. T.T

just keep swimming. just keep swimming.. saying it was easy, doing it was way difficult! i don't know how to swim. unlucky me.. it was fun though, playing ball in the pool. and my gosh, i know xinqi can swim but i didn't know that she can swim very well plus she can goes under the water.. this impressed us a lot. a little boy younger than my brother, probably around the age of 5, he swim in the adult pool too.. walao, even small children can swim.. i really must go learn to swim..

6.30pm

we went up. we felt very heavy after the swim, even jumping at that time was difficult.. so you can imagine how heavy was that. ate and shower was what we did back up. and shuli gave me and xinqi for a small gift, xinyi has one too, too bad she couldn't come.. it was a delicate necklace, rainbow as it pendant and a word friends. it's really sweet, thank you shuli.. too bad i had to go early. dad was coming when i was about to have a shower.. thanks karkar! thanks everyone!

let's call it a day. until next time then.

two and a half hours at queensbay

2010-01-03T22:47:00.003+08:00

at 2pm, i was supposed to be at borders, queensbay. but the problem was my dad. my goodness, he went to have a shower at exactly 2pm. this started to irritate me, he better change. so instead, i reached queensbay around 2.30pm. i just wish my dad let me drive the car alone, then i would never ever be late again!

so, the moment i went into the southern entrance, i saw them. xinqi, karkar, shu and her sis. they were discussing where to have lunch for me, shu and her sis, since karkar and xinqi already had theirs. i suggested we go eat at kimgary but there was a long queue at the waiting spot. we totaly needed to eat express so in the end, we had pizza. well, while waiting for the pizza, we chat. anyway, just the normal topics you have in conversation in lunch. we did confirm for the saturday activity. hohoho, we'll go swimming!! the pizza came, we ate. end of lunch.

we were like little children lost in a big and scary forest. not exactly, but still. we couldn't decide where to go next. so we went to bodyglove and saw junling who was working at there and she had to wear makeup.. then we went to see miyuki who was working in a shop selling perfumes. and then we saw popular!! we 'rushed' into it, all to happy to be able to fine a target after the long walk. i wanted to buy ink pens for my sis, but too bad, the pilot G2 went out of stock. fine. at least i bought leads for them and xinqi bought exam pad..

next, we went to vior as xinqi said the clothes from there are nice when we happened to pass by it. the clothes were really nice but expansive... 5pm was coming.. we chose the last spot for today. jusco. looking at clothes. what else? we saw some which was really nice.. and then we saw.. gowns! pretty gowns some was. we asked shu to try one one, then we asked xinqi to try one and she said we take four and four of us go try except shu's sis. too bad, in the end, nobody went to try those nice gowns.. and really soon, my dad came, i had to go home.. we all had to go home now.. am waiting for this sat!!

ps i was meant to take more photos but i forgot. how could i forgot this one really important and simple thing? will really have to take many photos this sat before all the chance to do so dies..

only one photo...

xinqi and karkar walking at the front, shu's sis, shu and me walking behind

pps good luck to those who are going to college tomorrow. bon voyage!

count down + sleepover

2010-01-02T22:58:00.003+08:00

i was supposed to arrive at xinqi's at 5pm but due to some stupid problem, i arrived after 6pm. auntie and uncle brought us to have dinner at supertanker. then we decided to go to count down later. we went back to xinqi's and chat somemore. it was the most serious conversation that i had in a week. around 10.30pm, we walked to queensbay from xinqi's aunt's house. as we walked, we could see there were MANY people. it was like an ants parade. along the way, we heard tank sang. too bad i couldn't make it in time for zhuan shu tian shi. me, xinqi and xinyi went for a walk in queensbay before we met again with her family for the count down and we started to send new year wishes to friends. before 12am, we chose a good spot for the firework and the screen of the concert. at exactly 12am, 'boom' the firework was off! amazing! i video-ed it down in my phone. it was 5minutes long. from that moment onward, i admire the work of cameraman..

after that, we walked home. there were even more people, and it looked even more like ants parade than just now.after we had shower and a mug of hot milo in each hand, it felt splendid. we went online, watched some mv in youtube, and we chat some more. and 4am came, seriously, we should sleep. and we did..

in the morning, i was the first to wake up, even before my alarm.. when the alarm rang, they didn't woke up, so i played the song again, louder this time. =.= they asked me to bath first... sleepy pigs. after that, her parents brought us to eat dinsam.. yum yum, but we were full! back. time to cook... i cooked for xinqi and xinyi. but actually, it turned out we cooked.. we only cooked a soup and eggs with tomatoes because we had too much earlier.. not long, 2 pm reached.. time to go but before that we cleaned up first..

cool~

family reunion

now you see why we needed to clean up

.... we got work to do..

haha

2009-12-30T14:23:00.002+08:00

it's funny to see people going to school when you've already graduated
for instance, seeing my brother going to standard one next year
and my sister going for form one next year
well, i can't say that i'm not happy for them to finally 'grow up'
but a part of wicked me pity them
because their worst nightmare has only just begun when mine was long ended
not that long, actually..
well, bon voyage, my dear siblings

dangerous 2 - survivalism at taman negara penang

2009-12-26T15:37:00.004+08:00

cool~
that's the best camp that i've ever entered.
now, listen to my short story

1st day
i went jungle tracking to pantai keracut.
although it tiring, it was quite fun when you did it with friends
after that we set up our tent for the night
then there was the telematch.
what i can say is it is fun.
and the game was like brand new to me.
after the game, we cooked. =.=
tomyam was what we had as dinner, it was quite good, though.
then the night club.
that's what every group had their two performances.
we didn't play till midnight due to some interruption from the guard.. urgh
but, we did have a chance to sit around as a small group to chat.

2nd day
after breakfast, we went to jungle tracking again
but this time, we went to the other camp side.
i forgot the name of the place..
we had a mystery solving plus cooking competition sort of game.
and the first time since i know how to cook,
i cooked for 16 people with my friend aka my partner in this com, kailin
well, it came out not bad.
after lunch, we had boat riding back to our camp side
this is the coolest part and the fun part about time camp
we enjoyed the sea..
but in the end, we got ourselves wet. the sea water was forever splashing our face.
back. we had another fun telematch, but it was shorter than yesterday.
we were exhausted when we had our shower.
then we BBQ!^^
i don't need to elaborate here, right?
then grouping and discussion..
oh, and then we went to look at the stars.
as we lay down on the sand, we can see the sky was full with stars.
marvellous. aw-inspiring. unforgettable.
we were reluctant to leave when the time for us to leave came.
at night, we can't go to sleep. in the end, we played card game and chat and i went to sleep at 4am..

3rd day, the last day
we became the spectators for the last game to choose the one and only survival!
that was quite exciting..
then after lunch, another boat ride and we're home.
you don't need to be told to know the boat ride was damn fun.
the only thing you need to know is, many people were like having a shower without mopping themselves dry afterward. i was lucky, i only got my hair wet. again.

that was what happened in three days. i was exhausted and even fall into a deep sleep on the way home..

just a few things to say

2009-12-20T13:30:00.002+08:00

hey
due to shortness in time, i'm going to keep this short and simple

1) finally i have finished my SPM. woohoo, now i have the time to relax and figure out what i'm going to do in future.

2) finally i got my car license. but, i can't drive the car alone yet. Yet, it'll be soon. i guess..

3) i'm facing the biggest challenge tomorrow. camping. hear this well. CAMPING. as in real life camping. wish me luck. and pray for me. *smirk*

maybe this would be the last post before the major exam

2009-11-02T20:46:00.002+08:00

i'll keep this nice and short

graduated last last saturday
and i had a great time together with lots of friends
and shed some tears when hugging friends..

and

two more weeks
argh!!
imagine this
two more
only one sentence pops into my head everyday i wake up
spm is coming by rocket
dead.
got to concentrate

so i decided that this would be the last post
and after the freaky major exam,
i can enjoy doing whatever i want
hehe

servant of evil

2009-10-21T16:41:00.004+08:00

although the world is against you
i'll still stand beside you
because i'm your brother
your twins
if you're evil
then i'm evil too
because we flow the same blood..

it's a nice song

it'll be pretty soon

2009-10-18T22:04:00.005+08:00

graduation is coming
i'm a bit down
we'll be going apart..
won't be able to see friends that often anymore
sometimes this make me refuse to face the truth
refuse to grow up
but that's what growing up are about

and junhui just send me a song to listen
a japanese song about a story
and it's sad...

*sigh*
today will end moodily..

highlights of the week

2009-10-16T18:22:00.005+08:00

wednesday

after school, i went to driving school for car theory course. it was quite bored, actually, except for the photos of car accidents. there were photos of beheaded man with blood everywhere, of people trapped inside the flatten car or of a man with only half his head and brain and blood everywhere. one word to describe this, 'disgusting' but i was okay with the pictures, they didn't give me mush impact. well, after that, we were taken out to learn about what to do when you first got in to a car and blah blah blah. it wasn't interesting, so i'm not gonna trouble myself for typing it out. then it ended at 6.30. i went to tuition after that and i was washed out by tiredness.

friday

today is the day. the day that i'm actually driving the car, but it was only inside the driving school because i haven't got my learner's permit. it turned out alright, not difficult at all but was a bit tiring because kancil has a heavy steering wheel. both of my palm are extremely red after that, even until now when i'm typing this all out. there was only three things to do, the slope, the parking and tiga penjuru. my slope wasn't very good, so i'll have to work on it. by and large, i was pretty good, so the uncle said when going back home. now, i'm gonna go have my dinner, i didn't have my lunch just now as my mum was late to fetch me to the driving school, so i only had some biscuit and a sweets.

ARGH again

2009-10-11T21:53:00.002+08:00

School life is getting harder and harder
with exercises and state papers coming everyday.
this is frustrating..

and
finally, i know it's a bit late liao
i'm going to car theory this wednesday
means that i'll be very tired when i get to phy tuition at 7.

well, got to hurry up with the cv thing..

hey

2009-10-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

guys
i realise that we only have 18 more days till graduation night.
whoa
sure we're looking forward to it, aren't' we?
and
please prepare enough tissue
in case you can't turn off your tap...
we must enjoy!

so, looking forward?
me too

trial is over, results are coming!

2009-10-04T14:30:00.002+08:00

the other night i was sooo happy about trial was over.
but then the day after that,
the first word i said when class had started was 'shoot'
the results are COMING
and the first day after exam,
we got 6, though only 2 was complete results,
which was chem and chinese
this time, we're dead.
hope the results are not too UGLY.

trial is over, SPM IS COMING.
i have to wake up and get to work.

ps felling under the weather.. argh~

the last day of raya holidays

2009-09-27T16:02:00.002+08:00

today is the last day...
haiz...
tomorrow will be the trial again.
my moto today is to finish as many revision as possible
and i just gave my little brother a hair cut..
so, time to work.

ARGH~

2009-09-25T15:19:00.001+08:00

suddenly got mood mau watch SKY HIGH
but mana tau the DVD tak tau ke mana...
haiz..
want watch pun cannot
finding it for 3 days liao still cannot find it..
T.T

getting new pair of spectacles

2009-09-19T13:39:00.003+08:00

thursday when i was in school, my spec suddenly broke.. i was like: oh my god! dad just warned me that it was about to broke yesterday and now it broke and i have a chemistry paper waiting for me at 11.35.. shoot.. my god... i had to do the exam without my glasses.. and everything is blur...

then yesterday morning, i went to play basketball with xhaomin and xinqi without my spec.. it was quite hard.. then after the basketball and shower at xinqi's, my dad brought me to the shop to get a new pair of spec. woohoo!!

and now... looking at the comp is also very difficult.. I MISS MY GLASSES..

later, i will have my new pair of spec on and everything i see will be clear again! YES!

basketball with zhaomin and xinqi

2009-09-18T09:50:00.002+08:00

haha.
today
very early in the morning,
i went to a padang near pantai jerejak and play basketball with xinqi and zhaomin..
it was fun and i haven't exercised for over a month already,
though we couldn't manage to play match..

well..
next time ba
when we all can play during p.e.

bye

two hectic weeks

2009-09-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

two hectic weeks..
trial...

dead.
i can only use this to describe my weeks..
the paper were so hard..

now came the raya holiday!
yeah!
though i still have 4 more days to go for my trial exam..
but i can use this holidays to revise and rest.

muahaha.

wish us luck ba..

wushu anniversary and librarians' anniversary

2009-09-06T15:53:00.008+08:00

wushu anniversary 29/8/09

i arrived at exactly 8.30am. then we started waiting for the station game to start after we sign in. while we were waiting, chiuyeng was very naughty, she went taking pfotos of people, some were without the knowing of people.. then, the game started. xinqi was the leader. there were 6 stations all together. each game was fun but i like the vollybaloon the best. haha. then the game ended. time to have lunch. chichen chop was what we ate, it was not bad. then came the cake, CHOCOLATE cake! my favourate! haha. i was so full when i went home. that was a great day. haha. and oh yea, each committee got a present from her junior, and our team won the game. so, every one in my team received two presents! wow! haha. now let's let the photos talk.

she didn't want to take photo

she doesn't know it.

fumming didn't want her face in this photo.

chiuyeng succeed to take fumming's photo this time after the failure in the last photo.

xinqi and me, and again, fumming didn't want to show her face.

this was the second game, we put every thing we had to form a long line.

we were loonking at the given tongue twister, fumming did it in the end.

this was our last game in the canteen.

we took photo with teachers.

the cake!

now it's the photos of some crazies.

happy

angry

sad

yeah!

first shot

secand shot

librarians' anniversary

at 9am, i arrived at the canteen, many form 5 were there already. then at 9.30, the show started. well, i'm abit lazy to type it all out. it was fun, the shows were good. so, basically, i had a great time. i not very happy at the moment because i formatted my pendrive and you know what happened after that.. so, i'll keep this short and nice. really, i like it very much. we had fun, we got to see the amazing items, we got presents and we got food.. since i lost all the stuff in my pendrive, i don't have much photos.

jiamein and xinyi

cake cutting ceremony

tagged again

2009-08-27T15:36:00.002+08:00

01. Who was your last text from? sl
02. Where was your default picture taken?i forgot
03. Your relationship status? single
04. Have you ever lost a close friend? yes
05. What is your current mood? neutral
06. How many siblings do you have? a sister and a brother
07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names? i guess i don't have to mention again. you'd know if you know me.
08. Where do you wish you were right now? any place that don't have exams
09. Have a crazy side? yup
10. Ever had a near death experience? yea, when i was an infant when there was a car accident
11. Something you do a lot? sleep
12. Angry at anyone? no, not at this moment
13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like? i don't know
14. When was the last time you cried? forgotten
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for? don't know
16. What you think about when you are falling asleep? dreaming
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? someone from the saloon
18. What is your favorite song? currently taylor swift's song
19. What are you doing right now? replying this tagged. =.=''
20. Who do you trust right now? i can't tell you.
21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? already forgetten
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week? of course no lah!!!
23. Who is your best friend that lives closest to you? of course is seeman
24. Describe your life in one word? typical
25. Who are you thinking of right now? nobody
26. What should you be doing right now? doing add math homework which are given ages ago
27. What are you listening to? 'fearless'
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug? wanying gua
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you? my mum, or was it my dad?
30. Do you act differently around the person you like? no gua
31. What is your natural hair color? my sis says it's brownish black. but what's the difference between black and brownish black?
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh? szeling, yesterday during physics tuition
33. Who was the last person to make you sad? secret
34. What do you hear? huh?
35.Is your hair curly or straight? a bit curly
36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before? no.
37. Do you have a best friend? yes
38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days? yes, my little brother. haha
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer? sometimes
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? yes, that time, i was in a rush
41. Are you happy with life right now? not really
42. Are you currently jealous? no
43. What jewelry are you currently wearing? nothing
44. What were you doing on Friday night? watching tv gua
45. Have you ever had your heart broken? ya gua
46. Have you ever broken someone's heart? not sure
47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now? yes...
48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for? having a flu or fever... 4th of ogos gua
49. How late did you stay up last night and why? 2am, stupid addmath, but i did read a page or two of my novel before i fall asleep..
50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? never been dated

tagged :
leechien
sunyon
marcus
ailyn
xinqi

tagged

2009-08-27T14:56:00.003+08:00

遊戲規則：被點名的人在我空間將這篇文章轉載到自己空間中，然後在編輯，刪去我的答案，要在自己的Q空間裡寫下自己的答案，然後傳給其他人，列出個需要回答問題的人的名字，通知對方被點名了，被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。這個人要在自己的Q空間裡註明是從哪裡接到問題的，並且再想一個題目傳給其他個人，讓幸福的遊戲繼續下去。不能回傳，否則犯規！被點到名字的人將得到大家的祝福，並且所有的美麗願望都會在不久後實現。請點10個朋友,不准不點，點完後請通知那10個老朋友他們被點！

被点者:
leechien
sunyon
peiqi
wuanxin
marcus
szeling
ailyn

★.PART ONE
Q01、你的大名？★ HwaFan
Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福？ ★ happy always, but then i know this would be impossible, wouldn't it?
Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要，為什麼？ ★ friends, because you can't always look for another best friend
Q04、你相信天長地久嗎？ ★ hmm, not really
Q06、你現在過得快樂麼？ ★ except for exams, i'll quite happy, really
Q07、如果有秘密，你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎？ ★it won't be a secret anymore if you tell anyone, will it?
Q08、喜歡小Baby嗎？ ★ definately, they're always so cure and angelic
Q09、覺得友情是永遠的麼？ ★ i don't really think so
Q10、希望自己多大結婚？ ★ no idea
Q11、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情？ ★ it depends
Q12、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好？ ★ again, it depends
Q13、最想去哪裡旅遊？ ★ Barcelona!
Q14、一輩子都不會忘記的事？ ★ too many
Q15、如果愛一個人，是不是要拼命挽回他？ ★ erm, depends on the situation
Q16、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰？ ★ i think of bluey sea..
Q17、你會愛他一輩子麼？ ★ erm.. i don't know
Q18、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人，你會選哪個？ ★ the one like me gua.. i honestly don't know
Q19、你會以何種方式表現你對他（她）的愛？ ★ haha, i don't know
Q20、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼？抱著他？★ do nothing. you wouldn't want to wake that person up, would you?
Q21、如果你想痛扁一個人，你希望那個人是？ ★ i don't really want to beat someone, so i can't think of anybody..
Q22、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎？ ★ sometimes
Q23、現在最迷什麼？ ★ i don't know.. maybe taylor swift's songs
Q24、你是好孩子嗎？ ★ i guess so
Q25、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要？ ★ both
Q26、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣？ ★ i don't know..
Q27、如果你的BF（GF）經常不回家的話，你會怎樣？ ★ i don't know
Q28、现在给你勇气，你最想做些什么事？ ★ bagpack travel

★.PART TWO
01、是誰傳給你這份問卷的？ ★ wanying
02、你們認識多久呢？ ★ 4 years
03、TA對你來說重要嗎？ ★ ya
04、你與TA的關係是？ ★ pals
05、請問TA的興趣是？ ★ not so sure..
06、你覺得TA的個性如何？ ★ a good person, helpful, good lister
07、TA在你心目中是幾分？ ★ i don't grade my friends
08、睡覺前第一件事？開風扇？喝水？ ★ pull my blanket up to my chin
09、你的偶像？ ★ s.h.e gua
10、你喜歡的季節？ ★ autumn, winter and summer
11、你打工麼？ ★ currently, i'm still a student
12、打工次數？ ★ -
13、你想去的國家？ ★ spain
14、你討厭什麼樣的個性？ ★ faker
15、你會抽煙麼？ ★ never
16、你會喝酒麼？ ★ does shandy count???
17、你常哭麼？ ★ sometimes, but not frequently
18、你常笑麼？ ★ yes!
19、你喜歡去哪玩？ ★ beach
20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼？ ★ sometimes
21、是假日時你都睡到幾點？ ★ till 11
22、今天的天氣是？ ★ rainy
53、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎？ ★ ???

★.PART THREE
54、我的BGM好听么？ ★ i don't have one
55、你的皮包里有什么说说吧 ★ money, calender, id card...
56、你生命中最重要的人是？ ★ i don't know
57、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀？ ★ ice cream, chocolate, spaghetti..
58、现在有喜欢的人吗？ ★ no gua
59、你還喜歡他(她)嗎? ★ -
60、你觉得我坏吗？ ★ ???
61. How do you classify whether you understand a person or not? ★ i don't know
62. 常常装傻吗？ ★ sometimes..

i'm tired

2009-08-09T09:52:00.002+08:00

ARGH!
i just came back from the Penang Peace Run
a tired work, but awesome to do with friends
it was 6km long
i walked with huichin
we asked xinqi to go first because we knew we couldn't run the whole time
instead, both of us ended walking till the end.
and, we even went to 7 eleven to buy chocolate and 100plus

so.
i am physically and mentally tired.
and i feel under the weather now.
i guess i must need some rest.
but T.T
i have tuition about an hour later..

see ya

midnight

2009-07-25T00:43:00.002+08:00

YES!
i've done editing the layout..
i was going to put photos in the blog title box
but couldn't do like what my friend did..
nevermind
next time ask her teach me liao ka put..

and

i'm going to watch HARRY POTTER 6 on SUNDAY at queensbay!!
with xinqi, wanyee and szeyun
haha.
i'm excited although my friends already told me not very good nia
haha

see ya
sleep time..

what i did from last saturday to today

2009-07-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

saturday
went to school concert after british council..
so i missed the debate, too bad
the concert was great and interesting

monday
stayed back in school for basketball match
match: yellow vs red, yellow won; green vs blue, green won
i'm yellow, so we won!

tuesday
account class..
semi-final for basketball..
match: green vs purple, green won..
DEAD.
they played rough!
that meant we had a hard game for wednesday

wednesday
stayed back for basketball final.
match: green vs yellow
they really played rough..
and of course
we didn't except to win at first
we just wanted to do our best
because win or not was not a thing that we worried
conclusion: we didn't win, we're the second no matter how hard we played..
don't worry, although green is the winner but we are better.
better than last year and we're the best.
we rock!

thursday
nothing more happened
except at tuition, actually it was before tuition
seeman cooked spaghetti for me with sausages!
that was the best spaghetti that i have ever tested!

friday
an important day
i have duty and ceramah at the same time after school..
let's say what happened before school ended..
SPOT CHECK!!
but not our class and s5e
because we were in the labs..
that was close and we were very lucky!

that was what that have happened..

the end

going to school concert

2009-07-18T15:20:00.002+08:00

today
i'm going to our school concert
for the first time of my life

i'll tell you when i'm back

oh yea
ans bon odori
i can't go
but i really wanted to
because i am going to the concert instead

so
THE END

a surprise for a friend

2009-06-29T16:33:00.002+08:00

last night
i helped my friend think of a surprise for my other friend
i gave her ideas
i sent her map
i told her what time to call to ask

not long after
two brains managed to think of a surprise in the end

you want to know?
impossible
wait for tomorrow la
hehe

at first, the whole thing is going to be them both
but since i don't have rumah sukan tomorrow
my friend asked me to join her with the surprise
and this, i'm sure, will make the surprise even greater and unbelievable

XD
so, stay tune
tomorrow
you'll see it!

"la petite mort" - 2.00pm

2009-06-29T16:22:00.003+08:00

"la petite mort"

i found this in a book i am reading
in the book
it says that this is French
which means
a feeling that part of you has died

i think this suits on me
i part of me really has died
jinghan noticed
and wanying knew

i found out this when i was doing a mental test in jinghan's class
the answer that i got in the end
is that if people who are important in my life leave
a part of me will die..

i think this is kinda true

but maybe now that part of me have come back to life.
who knows?

^^

rainy night

2009-06-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

the sky is thundering..
just like last friday
which i was alone waiting for mum at the cafe
and the sky was raining with the company of strong wind and loud thunder
i was a bit scared..

just like in the morning, the rain is heavy after the striking thunder
the rain is heavy, but short
unlike in the morning which was very long
and it made me comfy
i slept in till 9.30am

this is not my main point, actually

all i want to say is
sometimes
rainy day makes me down
sometimes
it makes me stop and think
sometimes
it makes me comfy and sleepy

i like rainy day with clouds, thunders and wind
although it sometimes makes me scared
and i like sunny day
with clear blue sky, beautiful sea and little clouds
just like a mid summer day, which was the hottest of summer day

rainy day and sunny day
one of the strongest contrasts..
just like black and white
i like both
maybe this show that deep down
i have two completely different personalities..
i don't really understand
but maybe that's me
this is the simplest conclusion i can get..

TEACHERS' DAY on 27/6

2009-06-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

today is the replacement school day for the whole Malaysia
but we are the luckiest, both we students and the teachers.
guess why?
because we're celebrating teachers' day today at school
no lessons for us
and no teaching for teacher..
that's the most interesting and exciting things one can do on a replacement day

at school after attendances are taken
all students are off to the hall for the penyampaian hadiah and the first part of the celebration..
the penyampaian hadiah is quite boring..
however, all of us give moral supports..
me and karkar do clap our hand..
the only thing that is special is parents are invite to give out the cert for their daugthers who have got the first third place in studying..
this is actually quite touching..

then is the first part of the celebrating..
a formal one..
include giving speech, teachers singing a song about teachers' sacred job and cake-ing time..

then comes the an hour long recess time..
the canteen is so packed with students that we can't even find a seat
in the end, we eat faster than normal and go back to our class
at there, we help to sort out the flowers and the homemade cake by junhui for the teachers that are teaching us and was teaching us..
after that we head for the stuff room..
the teachers' reaction is very sweet..
this make me like them more..
and we take a few photos with teachers and friends that i see during the trip to the stuff room..

time for us to go back to the hall for the second part of the celebration
which is the performance by students..
the performance is great
the are singing, drama, poetry, orchestra china, harmonica dance and many more
also there are video by pusat sumber..
love it, so damn funny!! haha

after this, teachers are having buffet in the hall
so, all students go back to class and is then guarded by prefects
and we take more photos..

hehe..
what a day!
this will be the best teachers' day ever for the teachers and the students to enjoy.

it has been exactly two years

2009-06-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

all seems like yesterday
although it was exactly two years that it happened

from that moment exactly two years before
i knew that my life
our life
is not going to be the same again
even if all went well in the end
it will still never be the same..
just the four of us..
what a time we had..

two years since
i can only tell you that everything is different
new
unknown
complicated
confusing
difficult
and trust me, even tragic, sarcastic and ironic..
this is what that happened afterwards

true
maybe i am being overreacted
or oversensitive

but think carefully and clearly
who could cope all the pressure when someone you've known for such a long time
and been beside you for so long in all the sweet and sour
just couldn't stay with you anymore?
who could adapt herself when suddenly there is one person less in your life around you?
i bet there are a lot of people out there who could
but i couldn't
the shock was too great to cope with

four left three
that was what happened at here
life goes on
sometimes it looks the same
sometimes it doesn't

nobody is going to be exactly the same
in fact
i bet not many people can remember this date
23/6
not many can
and not many will

THE END

moderate day except for p.e. lesson

2009-06-22T19:19:00.002+08:00

well.
my title has told you what you need to know about my day.
it's just moderate.
nothing much happened..

well,
there is one thins, actually..
my P.E. lesson..
played basketball, my favourite, after all the exams and holidays.

playing with old friends is a fun thing to do.
the game was really excited
and many funny incidents today.
so, we were laughing while playing..
this was quite impossible,
but we did it..
so, we're superhuman..
yeah!

let me tell you another thing..
i'm writing this because xinQi kept asking me to..
i've done my post.
where's yours??

muahaha..

oh yeah, and biology lesson.
it was boring in a way.
not because of the subject,
but the teacher..
her sleeping charm is one of the strongest i can get in all the teachers that teach us.
and moreover
it was raining heavily.
so, this made the situation worst.

everyone were very sleepy at that time.
i wasn't very sleepy
not because of the teacher's sleeping charm didn't have any effect on me,
in fact, it had.
but i was sort of hyperactive that i kept annoying xinqi and junhui...
haha..

well i think this is enough for today, right? xinqi
now i can have my dinner..

see ya

fathers' day and mum's birthday

2009-06-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

wow. i almost forgot to mention this..

two great things in one day

fathers' day and mum's birthday.

dad, happy fathers' day..

mum, happy birthday..

this is not all..

xiaomei and yeewuan, happy birthday to you guys too..

XD

new day, new life

2009-06-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is the starting of another day.

forget about the terrible and horrible results.

i swear that i'm going to put effort into revision.

new day, new life, a new starting.

the big day's coming, though..

smile~

seeya

memoirs

2009-06-15T17:41:00.005+08:00

xinqi just sent me some photos..

not photos taken recently, but old one, taken last or a few years back..

these photos bring back memory..

it's as if that was just yesterday that they happened,

fresh and unforgetting..

now, let the photos talk..

this was taken when we gathered at xinqi's before went to her aunt's for badminton and basketball 2 years before.. all was good.. we looked good, and happy.. good time we had.. i'm missing it...

this was taken before shuli left to Australia nearly 2 years before.. we were smiling in this picture. but not long after this photo was captured, we looked the opposite as we were in the photo.. a wet memory, this is what it was.. this was the starting of change.. all is well.. hope so.. ^^

same event, at the airport.. the air-conditioning was cold.. but what was happenning to all of us that was nothing but unsure was even colder.. everything was going to be well, that's what we agreed. and i'm still hoping everything really is going to be well.. ^^

half a year before, we went to xinqi's house again. we were just spending some time together, and clearly, we're still waiting.. but that was fun, really fun.. had great time when we were together.. ^^

after seeing all this photos, i realise one thing. i'm dead regret that we hadn't taken more photos.. which is the saddest part.. photos are one way to keep in all the memories that might fade and fly away with wind and get carried away and never will you catch up and grab them firm and safe again in your hand. i just wish that we can have more time to spend time together, and take lots of photos for memory.. all is well..

school reopened....

2009-06-15T17:01:00.004+08:00

today is the first day of school after the two week long holiday..
i am happy to meet up with friends again
go to jinghan's class to chat with jinghan, kahsing and sinyun first.. haha
and then when going back to class, see xinqi coming out from class..
haha. we're so excited...
then see szeling, go up with her to see wanying..
haha. i'm a bit high.. until...

hell! we're getting our results today...
i don't want to say anything about results..
too upset..

apart from the bad part when resalts are given out
today is actually a very great day
and happy day.
i laugh through the whole day with friends..

goodluck to everyone.. ^^

Dangerous!! 9/6/09

2009-06-12T17:02:00.014+08:00

i've waited this day since i got the registration form. the game is sooo cool, and i know it's going to be fun for sure. the night before the big game, i started packing all the things that are needed.. quite a lot of things.

i arrive at exactly 7.30 and found sinyun waiting for me at the pondok at the gate. we talked with the other two girls who are same group with us. ( hate them, i'll tell you why later ). waiting for kahsing to arrive. when she arrived, we all, eight people, go to sign up and then sit at the padang. me, kahsing and sinyun chat. kahsing starts to introduce herself in a very typical Leo way. and this is when she found out that the two other girls have problem with us..

since we are two groups combined together, so, we need to get a new leader.. i ask, the boys say no comment. fine. i ask the two girls, one of them is the leader for the other group. and she said chingcai. fine then. everyone is acting very not sporting. so, i say: fine, i'll be the leader.. what an unsporting group. we three, me, kahsing and sinyun head to the loo, and discuss what happened..

those two girls really have problems with us, especially kahsing.

the dj announces for every participants to sit in the front. the game is nearly started. not. some speeches, rules, and warming up. and then then mini game before the big game starts.. we got the answer quite fast, thanks to our mr. riddle cracker, and after drawing the map, we head for the counter to take our first clue and food...

i want to skip the details. the stations and clue-finding are fun and exciting. the only part that is not fun is waiting for that two girls for nearly 2 hours... what a time-waster!! in the end, we can't finish the game and hence, cannot get into final.. many thanks to you two! everybody in the group is so pissed!

oh. and i want to say thanks to pcghs's ex-students. thanks for helping us to kaotim the girls, by your helping, at least we finish half the game.. haha

well. it's a bit disappointing not to get into the final. anyway, it's really fun and a good experience.. but tiring. my whole body sores..

next year, i'm going to enter the game again!!

me, kahsing and sinyun. faces drawn.. haha

our team..

funny make up..

it's sunday..

2009-06-07T19:37:00.005+08:00

last two days' weather was sooo good..
the sky was forget-me-not.
the clouds were snowy white.
they matched sooo perfectly that the sky looked even bluer and the clouds looked even shiner..

the sea..
it reflects the perfect blue and the cleariness of the sky..
i noticed that day that the sea showed 4 different blues.
the lighter blue..
the darker blue..
and the greenish-blue, which is the most beautiful: turquoise..

the sea is soo awe-inspiring that i always wanted to jump into it and swim..
although i don't know how to..

i always have a dream that
one day
i'd live in a summerhouse by sea.
maybe even a boat
then
i'll always have the sunshine..
XD

a day in queensbay to have the time of our life

2009-06-05T00:04:00.010+08:00

4/6/09

i'm sooo excited. we're going to queensbay again. just me, xinqi and xinyi having some quality time together after the frustrating exams. hwafan, you should stop talking about exam and focus to our topic today, an outing to queensbay. seriously, the last time we hang out in qb was ages ago, to be exact, last year december. maybe i am wrong about the last time we went to qb. whatever, now is the most important thing.

anyway, i am supposed to arrive at qb earlier than 11.30. but thanks to my dad, who refuses to leave the house unless he has his shower and my was-sick-brother, which my mum has to tag along to buy him medicine. so, in the end, i arrive an hour late, that's my worst record.

arriving there, i call xinqi to ask where they are. they're at kimgary, looks like we'll be having our lunch at there. oh by the way, i was thinking of giving up my lunch since i am late and might no catch lunch with them, but in the end, both of them haven't eaten, so my lunch is safe.

well, when i found them, they are queueing to get our seats. there are so many people at kimgary at lunch time. after some time, our turn comes. after taking our seats, we take our order. we chat as we wait for our food to come. that was fun.. haha. well, we talk even as we have our lunch. the food is yummy.. haha. in the end, both xinyi and xinqi are sooo full that i go to pay the bill while waiting for them to finish up their dish.. haiyo.. and, during lunch, we have a good laugh and ehemm, they peli me. but nevermind, i've also peli you guys. muahaha....

after lunch, we stroll along the shops. hehe. the main reason for this walk is to let them both digest their too full tummy before sitting in the cinema watching the movie.. i'm not very full, so i enjoy the walk.. haha

since both xinqi and xinyi are full, we don't buy popcorns anymore. i fear that if i buy popcorns, they will explode due to over-eaten. hehe. we watch 'Night At The Musuem 2'. the movie is very funny, and again, we have a good laugh. ohh, 'Ice Age 3' is coming soon, it'll be very damn funny. haha. oh yea, when we enter, xinyi asks for a few times if we're sure we don't want popcorns.. hmm, maybe all along, she wants the popcorns.. haha

after movie, it's ice-cream time!! yum yum! we buy baskin robbins, two junior for xinqi and xinyi, a regular for me. yum yum. we walk over to the sea side.. the weather is awesome! we have fun chating while enjoying the scene.. haha. i capture some photos..

time passes like arrow.. 5.30pm is here. before that, we went to forever 21 and vince.. xinyi's the one who leaves first. then left xinqi and me. oh yea, we saw alison! and a baby knocks his head because he doesn't see the glass. poor little baby. becareful!!

then xinqi also leaves. left me. haha. i go home by taking rapid, waited for a long time until the bus came. haha. that's the end of story. here comes the photos!

my plan was to secretly snap a photo of them both when i offered to throw the ice-cream container for us. but my plane failed, they looked behind, maybe i wasn't quick enough. next time, i'll remember to act fast!

this was after they found out that i was photo capturing them, but i managed to take this photo without their knowing. and i like this photo and even named it 'having the time of life'. the photo looks very peaceful, with the sea, the sky, the rocks and the cloud.

xinqi took this photo, saying that this looked emo. but i don't think so. i was just looking at the beautiful sea. hehe.

they asked me to take this photo, they said: we want a photo bigger that the last one. and xinyi also said: can i don't want the rocks. and i said, rock in an important element in our lfe.. haha

me and xinqi wandered off down near the sea. xinyi was scared, so she refused to come down with us. so, we handed her our bags. haha, bully her again. when looking up towards her. we saw this. this is awesome. haha, she looked like she has conquered the world. so i named this photo 'xinyi the conqueror' haha.

forgotten

2009-05-31T23:03:00.003+08:00

i find that i am easily emo these days.
maybe i am turning a very pessimistic again.
if it really became so, it would make it twice,
and maybe i would be like this forever.

i don't want to be like this.
i am not like what i am when i was 14 anymore
people change.
so maybe i've change.
but i am not sure what i am changing to.
maybe i will lost myself.

all is unsure.
and i am scared
and fell unsafe at the same time.
i am forgotten.
maybe it's because of time

hope time can bring me back to my old self
but i'm not sure if i can recognize my old self
as it has been a long time

maybe i really am forgotten...

p/s i don't really know what i am writing.
maybe that's how i fell now.

YES!! LET'S SHOUT IT OUT! IT'S HOLIDAYS

2009-05-29T17:46:00.002+08:00

yes! holiday starts now.
and we just finished the two week long exam.
glad the we have finished all the papers.

this holiday is sure fun.
these are the thing i'm going to do in the holiday:

might go play basketball with zahomin and xinqi.
i miss basketball sooooo much.

oh, and shopping, with xinqi and xinyi, in queensbay.
hope that we can make it!! Gambade!
too bad seeman can go queensbay with me,
her holiday is packed with plans.

and Dangerous.
i'm sooo looking forward to it.
i have kahsing, sinyun in my group.
the other guy is from chunghwa.
i don't know who he is,
but me friend says he's his best friend.
anyway, all my friends,
wish me luck!!

and maybe school for wushu,
if the practice don't crash with Dangerous

well,
enough social life.
i'm gonna need time for myself.
so, there are a few books waiting for me. XD

friends, didn't get a chance to wish you all happy holiday.
so, happy holiday to all of you!!

feeling weird..

2009-05-29T17:33:00.002+08:00

sometimes
i really think i don't belong to this world at all.
life at here is horrible and sweet at the same time.
that's the dangerous part of it.
i fell unsafe,
but there isn't a safe place or a sanctuary to hide.
i'm afraid that one day,
i'll vanish from this world,
just like that.
felling weird,
maybe i'm just being pessimistic...

late post: LIBRARIAN OUTING

2009-04-22T23:10:00.011+08:00

yo!! OUTING of librarian!!
i was soooo excited. the time of the year.
although i had to wake up so damn early in the morning at 5 am. but it was worth it, because it was very very fun!!

6.45am - arrived at school in T and shorts, went to pull the blockers like usual.. then i saw ming li!! she came, to vist us!! i miss her, the best part was she helped me to pull those heavy blockers.. haha.. went to loo..

7.00am - friends from wushu started to arrive. chit-chat for a bit..

7.15am - around this time, xinQi came, in shorts that was shorter than mine.. XP saw yiming leaving for the kebersihan thingy..

7.30am - members of wushu are making the place packed.. decided to go help out with yiming with kebersihan.. this time we didn't have to do the cleaning ourselves, because all the four blooms were taken.. yipii!! the floor was quite clean..

7.45am - back from the cleaning, went up to the store to keep the blooms and dustpan. xinyi was here. we sat then chat..

8.00am - yeah. time to go to the outing!! arrived at the canteen. the f4 LGs were so sistematic, they even arranged our groups and put signs to indicate where all the groups member were suppose to sit.. cool.. were waiting for our group members to arrive.

8.30am - geik got into our group and jiamein will only be arrived later.

the game had started. walao, the clues the LGs did was like IQ test, so dificult. we went to bilik bacaan first, not really in the bilik, but outside it. in the game, we needed to memorise the things the statements said, and their sequence, then use the cards collected to list them in the correct order. the game was crazy, bully our brain. wakaka. but we won in the end.

then we went to A8, guess what the clue was, get 8 As in PMR, walao, this was difficult. in this station, we needed to guess the idioms our group members gestured. kind of difficult, as the one who gestures couldn't say out the idioms. anyway, we got quite many correct. XD we won this station too.

then we found our new clue in clue box, which was actually not a box and very obvious. then the third station was at the taman, by this time, jiamien came. two of us, one is me, needed to blindfold. then went in to a circle surrounded by tables, then picked up as many crushed paper and balloons as possible, to gain marks. but we didn't win this station. haiyo. nevermind, we still had other stations.

okay, now that we had jiamien, we could be a greater group. then we headed for the book stall. this game was so easy, we only had to choose two members, then they will play for us. competing with other group, we only had to find scrapes of paper that had a special mark and find as many as we can. we found three, our opponent only found two, which made us the winner again. haha.

okay, time to find another clue from clue'box', we found it quite easily. then we went to the afternoon teachers' carpark. this game was very funny. me and chesing had to fight for polos. funny. not. my head hurted afterwords. anyway, once i got the polo, with a satey stick, then i will pass it to the other members, which only used toothpick. silly and looked very much like kissing, but it was quite hard to pass the polos till the end of the queue. speaking of hard, we managed to pass seven polos. cool! and this made us the winner of this station.

haha. time for the last station. the twister. player required: members with long legs and hands and an extremely good body twister. haha. very funny. it was quite hard, actually. but in the end, we asked for a tie because both our team and out opponent couldn't twist till we fall. haha.

the game will end now. not. we needed to do something else first. i didn't really understand the purpose of the last game, so, i won't mention it.

around 11.30am - we went back to the canteen. time to eat, we were hungry. but the food hadn't arrived yet. so we had to wait. before we had lunch. the LGs annouced the winner! let's hear the music and some drumroll! okay, the third place went to huimei's group, second went to one of the form3, and first went to chesing's group. we didn't win, but we were the best group, and i won the best leader award.

and then time for cake-cutting. the cake was very yummy, chocolate. i love chocolate, i love cake. yum yum. haha. and the LGs also did souvenirs for each librarian, a DIY keychain, very creative.

and the food was only bihun and sausage.

1.00pm - time to go home, but the AJK stayback for a while to have a meeting with the LGs.

that was our outing. this will be the last year for we F5 to take part in the game. by next year's outing, we will already be graduated. too bad. i will gonna miss the school life.

the cake. look at the words!

chocolate cake with strawberries!

yummy!

the key chain.

it even has a bar code..

never lose yourself..

2009-04-22T22:49:00.005+08:00

haiz
being emo again.
i don't really know why
maybe being emo is in my nature..

somebody said: i want to copy her style
i said: just remember not to lose yourself

i am telling people this
but actually the truth is i am losing myself
maybe it's because everybody includes me are very busy
maybe it's because of tension everywhere
maybe it's something else

i wouldn't know the reason
being pessimist just another normal thing for me
but i hate this me

somebody else told me to keep myself busy
and that will do
and keeps me away from being emo..
and i am going to listen to that person

wish me luck ba..

Sports day!!!

2009-04-12T16:18:00.003+08:00

wao! sports day yesterday! it was very fun!! i had a great time but very tired until today still sleepy plus headache.. nevermind about me, i want to tell you guys about my sports day!

5.00am- just woke up! so damn early! ok, nevermind, later can enjoy, better then stay in class. had a bit breakfast.

5.45am- seeman came to my house to wait for bus together like usual. bus came, now is sleeping time.

6.30am- needed to switch bus like usual. waited at the bus stop opposite greenlane. bus came. SO MANY PCGHS GRILS!! T.T no seat left.. nevermind, me seeman, szeling and yingxiu stood at the aisle.

6.45am- finally, at school. said bye to seeman, me and szeling walked to class.

6.50am- in class. dumped my beg, visited the loo. then went to talk with jinghan. saw many mental test on her class's board. did a few. some are very accurate.

7.10am- went back to class. talked with friends. then prefect came to take attendence.

7.15am- the bell rang, time to enjoy. i left my class.

7.20am- found szeling, we went to join wanying and some other people in c7.

7.25am- talked with wanying the therapist at the stairs. felt better..

7.35am- went back to c7. chated with them, played cube.. had a great time while waiting for the opening ceremony.

8.00am- said bye to szeling and jerwei. they were off to kebersihan duty.. kelian. we kept chatting.. happy time.. haha. and the opening ceremony began.

8.15am- took money and we were ready for the journey around the school to enjoy and eat!! we had pizza, vitagen. wanyee had a fish burgur..

9.00am- szeling and jerwei came back from duty. we continue our voyage.. haha.. wanying belanja us ice-cream. yum yum. thank you wanying. bought Y.E.'s product.. and i saw chiachia, had a qiuck chat. nice to see you again chia chia!!

10.00am- still walking.. a bit tired already. and the weather was very himid and hot.. we sat near to basketball court, watched jane and huisean running, cheered for them.. saw leechien and whooimeen and kahsing, chated for a while.then we left to the private school area. i bought fish balls, belanja wanying one. jerwei bought ice kacang, szeling bought a twister, and i bought another thing.. haha, i'm nearly full..

10.30am- we bought vitagen again. wanying had 3 vitagen to drink, people belanja de. we sat at taman mppp and watch people ran... the weather is still hot and humid.. jay chou's song was playing. we sang together. wanyi was running, we cheered for her..

11.00am- szeling and jerwei needed to go duty again. pity.. not long after they went, me, wanying, wanyee and hooitheng went back to c7. we sat and talk.

11.15am- company wanying to the other side of 2nd floor. saw jinghan, chated again. went to groundfloor again with wanying, together we brought everyone back to c7.. waiting for the ending ceremony.

11.30am- ending ceremony, prizes were given out.. nothing interesting..

12.00pm- finally, sports day ended. but we couldn't go home yet.. haiz, had to wait till 12.30 in the stadium. at stadium, we sat according to our class.. prefects came to take attendence again.

12.30pm- yeah! the bell rang. walk out to bus stop with szeling. went to 7 eleven to buy xpax..

12.40pm- bus was not yet coming, the weather was still very hot. seeman arrived. we went to 7 eleven to buy junk food..

12.50pm- finally the bus came.. we were quick, able to find seats. seeman, me and szeling ate junk food and chat.. we were very tired. so we slept..

2.30pm- i was home..

end of story!!

this was the last time we can have sports day because we will graduate at the end of this year. but we can come back to school for sports day, can't we?? ^^

xiaolonG is emo

2009-04-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

xiaolonG is emo
xiaolonG is afraid
xiaolonG is sad

xiaolonG is afraid of cruelty of this world
xiaolonG is afraid of cruelty of truth
xiaolonG is afraid of future
xiaolonG is afraid she will lose

because of these
xiaolonG is sad
xiaolonG is emo
xiaolonG wants to cry out loud,
but seems couldn't do so
because it is too painful

new background!!

2009-04-05T18:15:00.002+08:00

i have my new background now, thanks to wanying!!

things that i want to tell wanying:
1) my blog is pretty!! thanks to you.
2) my blog is much much more better than before, thanks to you.
3) i love my blog now, thanks to you.
4) and last, thank you a thousand times!!

^^
ladies and gentlemen, i bring you my blog, enjoy please!!
XD

幸福套餐

2009-03-28T15:06:00.004+08:00

Rules #1: 被点者请在自己的BLOG写下答案。
Rules #2: 请传给另外其他人。(至少3个)
Rules #3: 传阅人请在这时个人的留言板中，告知他/她已被点名了。
Rules #4: 这些被点名者，被点的会得到幸福，愿望立刻实现。

“幸福套餐”开始咯......

幸福套餐1
你的绰号: FaN, 小龙咯咯, 娃娃音( i am innocent, T.T )
年龄: already 17 liao lo in white valentine's day.. hehe
星座: pisces
兴趣: read story lo, text messaging lo, go online lo, play basket ball (long long time no play liao, miss playing)

幸福套餐2
你有没有喜欢的人: for now, no gua. hehe
是否在交往: i said i don't have liao lo. haha. XD
现在幸福吗: yes as long as i am alive on this universe.. haha
你最想做的事是: hmm, let me think, what i'd like to do is to do things that i like in everyday of my life..

幸福套餐3
点你的人是: xinQi
她是你的: best friend. XP
她的个性: can be very playfull at some times, and can be very serious at some times. she is very, erm, how to say, deep person. haha. no offence xinQi, don't terminate me. haha.. XD
你想对她说什么: best friends forever!! and must always be cheerfull!! smiles suit you best! ^^

幸福套餐4
最爱的节目: CSI, CSI-NY, LOST.. but i don't have astro now, so cannot watch! T.T
最爱的音乐: many wor! but recently i am addicted to 神木与瞳's songs. very nice songs, meaningfull to me. ^^
喜欢最爱的季节: i like two season. 1st: autumn, because maybe i am a bit pessimism, and autumn seems a sad and deep season to me, and because autunm seems very romantic.. ( hehe, can't blam me, i am a typical pisces. ) 2nd: winter, because i like world in white, it seems quiet and peaceful..
最爱的卡通: mickey mouse, pink panther, tom and jerry
最爱的人: friends and family
最爱的颜色: blue, purple, white and black and turquoise
最爱的国家: i don't know, mabye spain gua, because i like barcelona
最爱的天气: i like blue sky, and i like raining day..

幸福套餐5
如果上天给你3个愿望：1) i want to live well in this live. 2) time passes slower, so that i have more time for friends and such.. 3) to forget..
你是一个专一的人吗：i don't know, maybe. xinQi, am i?
最深刻的回忆: everyday since i was born, everyday is meaningful to me
你是个很有信心的人吗: 50%50%
你很爱微笑吗: yes i like. i hate myself when i am emo-ing and very very pessimistic.. haiz..
如果要你放弃现在的生活: if only i'll have a better life. but now i am happy with what i have now.
妄想什么样的生活: a life free from test, exams and studying for tests and exams
是否横刀夺爱才是爱: no. in my view, love is full of caring for other people. if somebody will stay up late just to wait for you to go to sleep, you are lucky. ^^

问卷到此结束，点人者请至于被点者的留言板。
现在，我要把幸福套餐送给··· 1) zhao min 2) chia chia 3) jing han

17

2009-03-14T00:16:00.002+08:00

12.17am

yeah! i'm 17!!

Happy birthday to me!

to tell you the truth, this is the best birthday out of so many birthdays,
because so many people wish me!
i feel like i am a xing4 fu2 de xiao3 hai2. XD

anyway, hope all of us can have a great and happy year!!

12.21am-the end

Woa!!

2009-03-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

Walao e!
who's this girl, hasn't updated her blog for ages,
or you can say it was the last century since her updates.

Let me tell you a truth.
that girl is me.

I have so so soooo many schoolworks,
staybacks in school that i didn't have time to work on my blog.

I promise, i'll do my best to update my blog as often as possible. zettai!

a camp for three days and two nights

2008-12-17T23:40:00.005+08:00

The first day: 14/12/08

5am

WHAT??! SO EARLY IN THE MORNING!! Why do i wake up for? Aiya, i have a camp to attend. I've told myself that in this camp, i want to be more active, 'cause in the last camp in Butterworth, i wasn't high and active enough, so i decided to inprove myself this time. So, it's time to get ready, not much to do, except have a shower and check my luggage again to make sure i've bring everything.

6.15am

I'm on my way to chung hua. Recieve a message from xinqi asking where i am. She's there already and i'm still on my way. Star walk is slowing me, have to change lane to go through.. I promise xinqi that i'll miss call her when i get there.

6.45am

Finally, i'm here!! Xinqi's fast, runs her way to me as soon as i get down from car. She's probably waiting for me outside 'cause she doesn't want to be a light bulb.. Just joking, don't kill me, xinqi. ^^ Anyway, i sign in in the counter. There are 12 groups, each named after the 12 horoscopes. Each three groups are grouped to four: windy, watery, fire and woody. My group is pisces, which is my own horoscope, and is grouped in watery. Ok, now i've signed in, i take my file with the booklet and go into the homeroom with xinqi. Wah, so many people, i see liming and her boy. Then i sit down and flick through my booklet. And then, not much happen.

7am

Now's the time to move our luggage to our 'room', it's actually a classroom, which is in the fourth level, so high.. Haiz, i guess i'll have to go up and down from the top floor to the ground floor again.. Anyway, i see that not many people share a classroom, and boys' room is at the opposite, in the other block.

8am

I go back down to the homeroom with xinqi. When we get inside, i see that there are 12 boxes at the front with each group's name on it. Well, i guess it's time seperate with friends and sit with total strangers. Luckily xinqi's group's just beside me. Glad to have you. Now, i see that nobody's at the front of my group, so i sit down, at the front!! Hwafan, what're you thinking, you don't usually sit in the front of a row, especially don't in a camp where you don't know anybody. Well, i just sit down. People start to sit down. Someone named wucai stats to talk, he's kind of funny, what he says.. I'll start using senior on those ajk or dudao who i don't know his or her name.. Ok, now a senior hands me some paper. Wucai tells us to write our names big and nice so that those who has sight problem can see. [haha] Don't know what's this for, i write my name anyway, big and nice and i give it back.

And then, it's time to find our name tag. Each of us will get a name tag, but it's not ours, we'll have to find the tag's owner as soon as possible and ask five question: name, school, and three other questions.

----------------------------to be continue------------------------------

Alice in the wonderland??!

2008-11-26T14:30:00.001+08:00

One day, Alice was flying on a plane. She felt very bored, she had no book to read, nothing to play with. So, she decided to look at the beautiful scenery outside from the plane window.

Then, she saw something very weird. And suddenly, the plane started to vibrate so vigorously that Alice was thrown outside the plane through the emergency door. Alice thought she'd be dead but miraculously, she landed on the ground safe and sound, not even a scratch. She survived!! So, she decided to explore the world she was in. She started to walk, very slowly, sucked in everything she saw.

Not long after, she saw a very strange thing. It looked like a ruin of a tower, built by people ages ago by putting great big flate stones together, but it also looked like coins, only way more bigger than the coins she had in her pocket. She counldn't understand. She looked around, and saw that very far far away, there was something, like buildings. So she started to walk again, she thought that maybe there was people who she could get help from.

The journey to the buildings-like place was very long, it almost took two hours to walk there. Finally, she was there. But there was no one!! The buildings-like thing was in fact two similar towers, like the ruin, but they were still standing. She was very tired, very thirsty, she wanted to rest, but she couldn't find anyone that could help her, she was getting very desperate. She couldn't stand it any more. She leant on the wall, sat on the map-like floor and fell asleep.

When she finally awoke, that was hours later and it was nearly noon now. She felt very hungry. But she had to keep walking untill she found somebody who could help her. And there she was, arrived at a strange house. The house looked like a bear. The oddest thing happened, the bear started to talk. The bear told her to walk around the house. She saw there was nothing more interesting to do and she wanted the bossy and chaterbox bear to stop talking, so she did as the bear said: walk around the weird house.

Around the corner, she saw this. A round hole and the black thing that was suppose to be the door laid beside the house. Suddenly she understood. She entered the house through the hole and once she passed through the the door, POP!! Alice woke up, and she was in the real world now, it was just a strange dream.

17/11/08: on my way to leechien's birthday party at red box

2008-11-26T14:12:00.003+08:00

Hi everyboday. A very happy monday. I'm on my way to leechien's birtday party at RED BOX.

I'm going to give this bear to leechien. Shared by me, xinqi, jinghan, chiachiu and pheiwei. Cute bear, I'm going to miss you.

Travelling. The weather is very nice, the sky is very blue and i'm bored. So, i take a picture of dear teddy.

And another with me.

And another one.

And then i arrive. The party is fun and everyboday's crazy. Too bad i've to go back at 3pm.

14/11/08: bro's little birthday party at his school

2008-11-26T13:40:00.007+08:00

Today's friday, the LAST DAY of school. Cool hah? Well, so i decided to do something better, for instant , go to help my mum celebrate my little bro's birthday at his kindergarten. so, here i am.

My mum is taking the cake out. I am faster than my dad. He is only taking his camera out when i capture this photo. XD

Now. The very cute boy in red shirt is my dear little brother. And that's his cake: winnie the pooh. He chose it.

Say cheese!!

Wah! So many little kids. Thier teacher is giving out the cake to every kid in this room.

It's cake time!!

So, after all this, i go back home and prepare for school. It's sort of fun, looking at so many beautiful smiles when the kids see the cake.

school's off!!

2008-11-15T00:43:00.003+08:00

yeah
finally..
the school's over.

it's not like i hate school or anything
but i think i can use for a holiday to recharge myself

i think the most thing i'll miss is my friends ( truely )
we'll be seeing each other if we plan to go out..

well, nothing more
i want to wish all my friends to have a happy and great holiday!^^

oh~ look at patrick

2008-11-15T00:03:00.006+08:00

i felt bored, so i took some photos of my patrick the dog..

( look at me, i'm off to a holiday, to the beach which has deep clear blue sea, clean and yellowish sand. why don't you come with me, it'll be fun to have someone to play with. )

( don't worry that the sun is hot, i've brought sun block for you. )

( finally, we're here. let's head for the beach. what do you want to do first? let me suggest, swimming in the sea, diving in the sea, sun bathing on the beach, building sand castle, collecting sea shells or taking photos of the breath-taking scenery? pick one and i'm with you. you can count on me. )

( so, you've decided to sun bathing. look at me, i'm sun bathing with sun glasses on my eyes. wow, isn't what i've said rhyme? )

( the sun is getting hotter and hotter! )

okay, enough of patrick, got to go now, it has passed midnight.

i seriously need more sleep.

life is not fair

2008-10-11T02:00:00.003+08:00

life is not fair

she was our junior
she was only a thirteen-year-old girl
with the entire world waiting for her to explore
there were so much things for her to learn
but now she couldn't

the God has taken her
to the place of heaven
so that she can be with Him
and with many other good persons
and so that she can be an angel

somethimes
i think God is so selfish
He takes the good persons
but He may have His onw reason and purpose
to take the good persons

so
dear junior
you'll forever be remembered
by all of us who has known you
so long for now
rest in peace..

new blog name: the meaning of life

2008-10-11T01:40:00.003+08:00

life
is like a circle
a cycle
a loop
if you walk around these things
you'll never find an end

life's the same
no matter what happens
life just goes on
no matter what you do
you can't stop life from going on

it's like when someone dies
or something happens
you'll be affected
but you still have to go on with your life
when you've gotten over the thing that happened
you're less affected
and it's still the same
your life goes on

i can still remember
when neil asked each of us in turn in a class
to tell him what did home mean to us
when it was my turn
i told him
'home is where life goes on,
no matter what happens,
you'll still go home
and go on with your life,'

life
is a strange thing
today
i may be able to define life to you
or to tell you what life means from this point of view
but tomorrow
i may not be able to define
or to tell you from this point to you

life
is a difficult thing
too deep to be understood

who are you?

2008-09-30T23:18:00.002+08:00

i don't know you
but i don't like you much
the good thing is that i don't know you much either
or rather i've only known you

but do you know why i don't like you?

let me tell you a few things
i don't like your attitude
i don't like the way you talk
i don't like you style
i don't find your jokes funny
i don't find the thing you did amusing
i don't find you cool
you make a lot of noises...

let's just put it straight and simple
i don't like you.
that's all

do you know?

2008-09-26T23:01:00.001+08:00

that really hurts.
like someone has back-stabbed you.

i didn't know that.
i thought every thing's okay..

you wouldn't have done this if you know this:
i chose you out of many other people because i know you,
and because i trust you..

do you know this?
i suppose you don't..
because i know you'd never have done this if you know..

a story

2008-09-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

Dear friends.
I want to tell you a story.

Once upon a time, there was a magic school. In this school, students of its were taught to do magic like, vanishing words from paper, seeing the future from a looking glass, producing a magic comb which can change your hair style whichever you like, reading a book without flicking through its pages, remembering in details all the things that had happened in your life...

One day, a new teacher came. She was asked to teach this class, doom. At first, the doom liked this teacher, because no teacher in this school could teach like her. She had style. She could teach the doom in a different way and they learnt quickly. Soon, the doom became the top students in this school.

But bad things always happened. She taught the doom for a reason. After a while, she changed. She didn't treat them nicely like she used to, she even became emotional. Sometimes, she would yell at the doom, scold them, say they were very rude. From that onwards, the doom started to dislike her. They even tried to avoid speaking to her, coming to school..

Worst things happened. One day, just before the most important exam in their school life, she acted. She took away all their powers, all the things that they had learnt in their entire life, all their magic. They lost everything, they had nothing left, they had to start from the beginning again.

The doom totally hated her. They said she was a black witch, very evil. They totally couldn't defeat her at the moment.

-------the end--------

This is my story. And the thing is, a similar things happened to us. And we want to defeat her and get our revenge.

YOU BETTER BEWARE!!!

what do you think?

2008-09-20T00:18:00.001+08:00

let me ask you something:

would you
don't bother if your child is walking bare-feeted?
don't bother even if your only one-and-a-half-year-old child is wandering of by himself?

i think anyone who has a right mind will never let this happend.

today i've saw this parents letting this happend..

i have no idea what this world has become..

慢慢/快快

2008-09-13T02:02:00.001+08:00

今天有两个人说我很慢
她们两个都是我的好朋友

因为这两句话
我开始了我的思路

我在想
慢有错吗？

我发现到身边的人总是快快的
我承认
我也有快的时候
不过慢也有慢的好处

我喜欢慢
因为慢的时候
我可以好好的享受人生

有时
我会慢慢的走
我会慢慢的吃
我会慢慢的看
我会慢慢的读
我会慢慢的享受

因为我发现
慢的时候
生活是很享受的

再说
慢慢的完成一样事物
可以让完成的事物很有素质

所以我再问一次
慢有错吗？

慢慢的代表我是个会享受着美丽人生的人

去年的我..今年的我..

2008-09-13T01:42:00.002+08:00

看着手上的报纸
我发现
去年的我
真的有忧郁症
年头听朋友说时
我还不相信她所说的话

她说
去年年尾的我
很恐怖
总是沉着一张脸
看到的总是满面的愁容
而笑容却很少

她还说
那时的我总是很孤僻
喜欢自己一个人
在人群中很少发现我

她还提到
那时的我还时常看着自己的手腕
像个要自杀的人似的
不过当隔一天她看我还好好的
就放心很多了

这几点在我看了那份报纸后都承认了

因为得了忧郁症
所以那时的我每天都很不开心

有时呆着的时候
眼泪也会不知觉得掉下来

那时的我也真的喜欢自己一个人
当时不喜欢参人的我心里只想
自己一个人的感觉多好
当别人都堆在一起谈天时
我则一个人静静的坐在旁边
别人问我为何一个人时
我都回答他们说我很喜欢自己一个人

有一次
当我负责一个戏剧表演时
我感到十分压力
十分无助
那时我还曾想过结束我这个短短的人身旅程

现在想起来
那时的我还真的有点恐怖

今年我有幸再和那位朋友同班
也因为有幸进入一个很好的班
交到好多朋友
我已渐渐好起来
在年中已完全康复

那位朋友说我康复不只因为交了很多朋友
也因为我面对了个我从去年以来一直逃避
一直不想面对
不想它成为事实的事实

我已好了
我答应自己
也答应那些关心我的朋友
我
不会再那么想不开
我会
好好的
开心的
活着我的每一天
并把开心带给别人

后语:
我很谢谢那位朋友
因为她在我去年最黑暗的时刻常常来关心我
陪我说话

我想说声
alikato！！

past-present-future

2008-09-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

What has passed has passed.
No matter how miserable my life has been,
the future will always be all sweetness and light,
and will always await me in the front.
Now I've changed.
I'm not the miserable self anymore,
but all cheerful and happiness.
I'll live my life well from now on.
No matter what happens..