Monday, 29 June 2009

a surprise for a friend

last night
i helped my friend think of a surprise for my other friend
i gave her ideas
i sent her map
i told her what time to call to ask

not long after
two brains managed to think of a surprise in the end

you want to know?
wait for tomorrow la

at first, the whole thing is going to be them both
but since i don't have rumah sukan tomorrow
my friend asked me to join her with the surprise
and this, i'm sure, will make the surprise even greater and unbelievable

so, stay tune
you'll see it!

"la petite mort" - 2.00pm

"la petite mort"

i found this in a book i am reading
in the book
it says that this is French
which means
a feeling that part of you has died

i think this suits on me
i part of me really has died
jinghan noticed
and wanying knew

i found out this when i was doing a mental test in jinghan's class
the answer that i got in the end
is that if people who are important in my life leave
a part of me will die..

i think this is kinda true

but maybe now that part of me have come back to life.
who knows?


Sunday, 28 June 2009

rainy night

the sky is thundering..
just like last friday
which i was alone waiting for mum at the cafe
and the sky was raining with the company of strong wind and loud thunder
i was a bit scared..

just like in the morning, the rain is heavy after the striking thunder
the rain is heavy, but short
unlike in the morning which was very long
and it made me comfy
i slept in till 9.30am

this is not my main point, actually

all i want to say is
rainy day makes me down
it makes me stop and think
it makes me comfy and sleepy

i like rainy day with clouds, thunders and wind
although it sometimes makes me scared
and i like sunny day
with clear blue sky, beautiful sea and little clouds
just like a mid summer day, which was the hottest of summer day

rainy day and sunny day
one of the strongest contrasts..
just like black and white
i like both
maybe this show that deep down
i have two completely different personalities..
i don't really understand
but maybe that's me
this is the simplest conclusion i can get..


today is the replacement school day for the whole Malaysia
but we are the luckiest, both we students and the teachers.
guess why?
because we're celebrating teachers' day today at school
no lessons for us
and no teaching for teacher..
that's the most interesting and exciting things one can do on a replacement day

at school after attendances are taken
all students are off to the hall for the penyampaian hadiah and the first part of the celebration..
the penyampaian hadiah is quite boring..
however, all of us give moral supports..
me and karkar do clap our hand..
the only thing that is special is parents are invite to give out the cert for their daugthers who have got the first third place in studying..
this is actually quite touching..

then is the first part of the celebrating..
a formal one..
include giving speech, teachers singing a song about teachers' sacred job and cake-ing time..

then comes the an hour long recess time..
the canteen is so packed with students that we can't even find a seat
in the end, we eat faster than normal and go back to our class
at there, we help to sort out the flowers and the homemade cake by junhui for the teachers that are teaching us and was teaching us..
after that we head for the stuff room..
the teachers' reaction is very sweet..
this make me like them more..
and we take a few photos with teachers and friends that i see during the trip to the stuff room..

time for us to go back to the hall for the second part of the celebration
which is the performance by students..
the performance is great
the are singing, drama, poetry, orchestra china, harmonica dance and many more
also there are video by pusat sumber..
love it, so damn funny!! haha

after this, teachers are having buffet in the hall
so, all students go back to class and is then guarded by prefects
and we take more photos..

what a day!
this will be the best teachers' day ever for the teachers and the students to enjoy.

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

it has been exactly two years

all seems like yesterday
although it was exactly two years that it happened

from that moment exactly two years before
i knew that my life
our life
is not going to be the same again
even if all went well in the end
it will still never be the same..
just the four of us..
what a time we had..

two years since
i can only tell you that everything is different
and trust me, even tragic, sarcastic and ironic..
this is what that happened afterwards

maybe i am being overreacted
or oversensitive

but think carefully and clearly
who could cope all the pressure when someone you've known for such a long time
and been beside you for so long in all the sweet and sour
just couldn't stay with you anymore?
who could adapt herself when suddenly there is one person less in your life around you?
i bet there are a lot of people out there who could
but i couldn't
the shock was too great to cope with

four left three
that was what happened at here
life goes on
sometimes it looks the same
sometimes it doesn't

nobody is going to be exactly the same
in fact
i bet not many people can remember this date
not many can
and not many will


Monday, 22 June 2009

moderate day except for p.e. lesson

my title has told you what you need to know about my day.
it's just moderate.
nothing much happened..

there is one thins, actually..
my P.E. lesson..
played basketball, my favourite, after all the exams and holidays.

playing with old friends is a fun thing to do.
the game was really excited
and many funny incidents today.
so, we were laughing while playing..
this was quite impossible,
but we did it..
so, we're superhuman..

let me tell you another thing..
i'm writing this because xinQi kept asking me to..
i've done my post.
where's yours??


oh yeah, and biology lesson.
it was boring in a way.
not because of the subject,
but the teacher..
her sleeping charm is one of the strongest i can get in all the teachers that teach us.
and moreover
it was raining heavily.
so, this made the situation worst.

everyone were very sleepy at that time.
i wasn't very sleepy
not because of the teacher's sleeping charm didn't have any effect on me,
in fact, it had.
but i was sort of hyperactive that i kept annoying xinqi and junhui...

well i think this is enough for today, right? xinqi
now i can have my dinner..

see ya

Sunday, 21 June 2009

fathers' day and mum's birthday

wow. i almost forgot to mention this..

two great things in one day

fathers' day and mum's birthday.

dad, happy fathers' day..

mum, happy birthday..

this is not all..

xiaomei and yeewuan, happy birthday to you guys too..


new day, new life

tomorrow is the starting of another day.

forget about the terrible and horrible results.

i swear that i'm going to put effort into revision.

new day, new life, a new starting.

the big day's coming, though..



Monday, 15 June 2009


xinqi just sent me some photos..
not photos taken recently, but old one, taken last or a few years back..
these photos bring back memory..
it's as if that was just yesterday that they happened,
fresh and unforgetting..
now, let the photos talk..

this was taken when we gathered at xinqi's before went to her aunt's for badminton and basketball 2 years before.. all was good.. we looked good, and happy.. good time we had.. i'm missing it...

this was taken before shuli left to Australia nearly 2 years before.. we were smiling in this picture. but not long after this photo was captured, we looked the opposite as we were in the photo.. a wet memory, this is what it was.. this was the starting of change.. all is well.. hope so.. ^^

same event, at the airport.. the air-conditioning was cold.. but what was happenning to all of us that was nothing but unsure was even colder.. everything was going to be well, that's what we agreed. and i'm still hoping everything really is going to be well.. ^^

half a year before, we went to xinqi's house again. we were just spending some time together, and clearly, we're still waiting.. but that was fun, really fun.. had great time when we were together.. ^^

after seeing all this photos, i realise one thing. i'm dead regret that we hadn't taken more photos.. which is the saddest part.. photos are one way to keep in all the memories that might fade and fly away with wind and get carried away and never will you catch up and grab them firm and safe again in your hand. i just wish that we can have more time to spend time together, and take lots of photos for memory.. all is well..

school reopened....

today is the first day of school after the two week long holiday..
i am happy to meet up with friends again
go to jinghan's class to chat with jinghan, kahsing and sinyun first.. haha
and then when going back to class, see xinqi coming out from class..
haha. we're so excited...
then see szeling, go up with her to see wanying..
haha. i'm a bit high.. until...

hell! we're getting our results today...
i don't want to say anything about results..
too upset..

apart from the bad part when resalts are given out
today is actually a very great day
and happy day.
i laugh through the whole day with friends..

goodluck to everyone.. ^^

Friday, 12 June 2009

Dangerous!! 9/6/09

i've waited this day since i got the registration form. the game is sooo cool, and i know it's going to be fun for sure. the night before the big game, i started packing all the things that are needed.. quite a lot of things.

i arrive at exactly 7.30 and found sinyun waiting for me at the pondok at the gate. we talked with the other two girls who are same group with us. ( hate them, i'll tell you why later ). waiting for kahsing to arrive. when she arrived, we all, eight people, go to sign up and then sit at the padang. me, kahsing and sinyun chat. kahsing starts to introduce herself in a very typical Leo way. and this is when she found out that the two other girls have problem with us..

since we are two groups combined together, so, we need to get a new leader.. i ask, the boys say no comment. fine. i ask the two girls, one of them is the leader for the other group. and she said chingcai. fine then. everyone is acting very not sporting. so, i say: fine, i'll be the leader.. what an unsporting group. we three, me, kahsing and sinyun head to the loo, and discuss what happened..
those two girls really have problems with us, especially kahsing.

the dj announces for every participants to sit in the front. the game is nearly started. not. some speeches, rules, and warming up. and then then mini game before the big game starts.. we got the answer quite fast, thanks to our mr. riddle cracker, and after drawing the map, we head for the counter to take our first clue and food...

i want to skip the details. the stations and clue-finding are fun and exciting. the only part that is not fun is waiting for that two girls for nearly 2 hours... what a time-waster!! in the end, we can't finish the game and hence, cannot get into final.. many thanks to you two! everybody in the group is so pissed!

oh. and i want to say thanks to pcghs's ex-students. thanks for helping us to kaotim the girls, by your helping, at least we finish half the game.. haha

well. it's a bit disappointing not to get into the final. anyway, it's really fun and a good experience.. but tiring. my whole body sores..

next year, i'm going to enter the game again!!

me, kahsing and sinyun. faces drawn.. haha

our team..

funny make up..

Sunday, 7 June 2009

it's sunday..

last two days' weather was sooo good..
the sky was forget-me-not.
the clouds were snowy white.
they matched sooo perfectly that the sky looked even bluer and the clouds looked even shiner..

the sea..
it reflects the perfect blue and the cleariness of the sky..
i noticed that day that the sea showed 4 different blues.
the lighter blue..
the darker blue..
and the greenish-blue, which is the most beautiful: turquoise..

the sea is soo awe-inspiring that i always wanted to jump into it and swim..
although i don't know how to..

i always have a dream that
one day
i'd live in a summerhouse by sea.
maybe even a boat
i'll always have the sunshine..

Friday, 5 June 2009

a day in queensbay to have the time of our life


i'm sooo excited. we're going to queensbay again. just me, xinqi and xinyi having some quality time together after the frustrating exams. hwafan, you should stop talking about exam and focus to our topic today, an outing to queensbay. seriously, the last time we hang out in qb was ages ago, to be exact, last year december. maybe i am wrong about the last time we went to qb. whatever, now is the most important thing.

anyway, i am supposed to arrive at qb earlier than 11.30. but thanks to my dad, who refuses to leave the house unless he has his shower and my was-sick-brother, which my mum has to tag along to buy him medicine. so, in the end, i arrive an hour late, that's my worst record.

arriving there, i call xinqi to ask where they are. they're at kimgary, looks like we'll be having our lunch at there. oh by the way, i was thinking of giving up my lunch since i am late and might no catch lunch with them, but in the end, both of them haven't eaten, so my lunch is safe.

well, when i found them, they are queueing to get our seats. there are so many people at kimgary at lunch time. after some time, our turn comes. after taking our seats, we take our order. we chat as we wait for our food to come. that was fun.. haha. well, we talk even as we have our lunch. the food is yummy.. haha. in the end, both xinyi and xinqi are sooo full that i go to pay the bill while waiting for them to finish up their dish.. haiyo.. and, during lunch, we have a good laugh and ehemm, they peli me. but nevermind, i've also peli you guys. muahaha....

after lunch, we stroll along the shops. hehe. the main reason for this walk is to let them both digest their too full tummy before sitting in the cinema watching the movie.. i'm not very full, so i enjoy the walk.. haha

since both xinqi and xinyi are full, we don't buy popcorns anymore. i fear that if i buy popcorns, they will explode due to over-eaten. hehe. we watch 'Night At The Musuem 2'. the movie is very funny, and again, we have a good laugh. ohh, 'Ice Age 3' is coming soon, it'll be very damn funny. haha. oh yea, when we enter, xinyi asks for a few times if we're sure we don't want popcorns.. hmm, maybe all along, she wants the popcorns.. haha
after movie, it's ice-cream time!! yum yum! we buy baskin robbins, two junior for xinqi and xinyi, a regular for me. yum yum. we walk over to the sea side.. the weather is awesome! we have fun chating while enjoying the scene.. haha. i capture some photos..

time passes like arrow.. 5.30pm is here. before that, we went to forever 21 and vince.. xinyi's the one who leaves first. then left xinqi and me. oh yea, we saw alison! and a baby knocks his head because he doesn't see the glass. poor little baby. becareful!!

then xinqi also leaves. left me. haha. i go home by taking rapid, waited for a long time until the bus came. haha. that's the end of story. here comes the photos!
my plan was to secretly snap a photo of them both when i offered to throw the ice-cream container for us. but my plane failed, they looked behind, maybe i wasn't quick enough. next time, i'll remember to act fast!

this was after they found out that i was photo capturing them, but i managed to take this photo without their knowing. and i like this photo and even named it 'having the time of life'. the photo looks very peaceful, with the sea, the sky, the rocks and the cloud.

xinqi took this photo, saying that this looked emo. but i don't think so. i was just looking at the beautiful sea. hehe.

they asked me to take this photo, they said: we want a photo bigger that the last one. and xinyi also said: can i don't want the rocks. and i said, rock in an important element in our lfe.. haha

me and xinqi wandered off down near the sea. xinyi was scared, so she refused to come down with us. so, we handed her our bags. haha, bully her again. when looking up towards her. we saw this. this is awesome. haha, she looked like she has conquered the world. so i named this photo 'xinyi the conqueror' haha.